just found out there is no friend around me

what a pathetic me?!

 

 i wanna talk to them to fulfill my hollow heart and share my experience

cry in front of them

thats the only thing i would like to do

let tears crash my face

 

i dont have any courage to write my real feeling down on my blog

i am scared to express in Mandarin

i thought i could cope ok with all of the difficulties

but iam so wrong

so wrong

 

its so painful theres no people around u when u r desperate

i tried to heal myself

i smoke

let  the fuck poison get deep into my body

fuck poison, do what u want  fuck ya!

i shut up

let the public speech mean nothing for me

their sounds were so vague

 

but i cant do it alone

i am still not there yet

 

god

pls either completely destroy me or give me whatever i want!

 

or

 

disppear...

 

 

everything will go the way it belongs to and keep going

u cant do anything

 

come and leave

that's consequence

 

take time to rehab

 

superman ahead

 

 

(((ps:this blog maybe tooooo negative, be prepared !!!)))